Beholding
verb
To see or look at, esp. appreciatively; to descry, look upon.
To look.
To contemplate.
adjective
Obligated to provide, display, or do something for another; indebted, obliged.
“From an early age, I had decided I wanted to be beholden to no one.”
Bound by external expectations, such as fashion or morality.
noun
The act by which something is beheld; regard; contemplation.